Freedom!
Here I am, sitting in front of my pc at home, typing my blog, which may has been long forgotten. I'm now finally enjoying the taste of freedom, and are no longer at the recieving end of that horrible woman. I can finally say "Goodbye to good riddance!" haha. To update to those who have been wondering what I have been trying to convey in my past blogs, I have finally left my current job. Will be walking one big round to my previous job, a job which I have taken for granted previously: the wonderful and appreciative bosses and most importantly being paid duly for my efforts.
To reflect on my past job, this job has exposed my eyes to the financial sector. This sector has shown me the worst of human nature: greed and selfishness. People can smile sweetly in front of you at one minute and the next minute stab you in the back deeply without you knowing. People trying hard to gain their bosses' favor in return for promotions and higher bonus. Everything is about impression, impression and impression. The previous months in this job has only left me with an empty, hollow feeling: people are only working here just for the money. Was mentioning to my friend that the people who claim to enjoy their work in the financial sector are those in the higher management. People who get to enjoy power without getting their hands dirty.
To prevent myself from further changing into such an empty person, has made the decision to leave the sector and to go back to my roots.
I'm finally enjoying the taste of freedom from such a place =)
Alter life after work (Updated avatar)
Has came to love playing this game out of the meaningless working life that I have now: WoW. As what my friend describes, "You feel a sense of achievement when playing this game, doing something that is more valuable as compared to what you are doing in the daytime." Yep, that's the guildmaster's words for your info. Me and my guild members, which comprises mostly of friends, could easily discuss for hours on how to level up the characters, the characteristics of each class, and the different kinds of runs/raids. It has also incorporated the meaning of teamwork, as any mistakes could easily result in a wipe. Even running the guild is like managing a company, with disputes over distribution of loot, make-up of a run, how well geared that a person is etc. One thing that I love about this game is that it gives rise to new kinds of scenarios, learning more about the friends that you play with, and even honour.
So..I have been devoting my night hours to my two main characters that I have came to love: Druid and mage. Shall show my main character's stuff here for those who appreciate WoW:
Getting bitter..
It was quite some days ago when I read an email about the story of a mum teaching her daughter on the choices of either being a coffee bean, an egg or something else. Remembered that one has the choice of becoming someone who has emerged stronger, weaker or bitter. Although I would have chosen to be like the coffee bean, I couldn't help but feel a bit bitter.
Bitter over what? Over the person who has thought me that no matter how much efforts that I have put in, efforts will never be valued? Even though good attitude is present, she will says that "it's your only saving grace". To her, what matters is "Impression is everything". I don't know whether to laugh or to cry. Isn't good attitude something to be valued? Things can be picked up or learnt over time, but good attitude is not that simple to cultivate in the first place. Or what she wants is someone who can simply presents and talks but is just an empty shell. To her, once she has given a "death sentence" to a person, good things do not matter anymore.
Perhaps the only thing that I learnt, was to be patient and calm, putting on a poker face everyday whenever I see her. Learning to deal with such a person who hurls accusation at you whenever things go wrong. Perhaps I should say to myself: "Welcome to the reality world". Or I should take comfort with what a friend says to me, "it's not the worst that you have encountered".
I yearn for the time when I'm no longer that bittered. If one day you see me with a glowing face, it means that that time has came.
long due update
Oh gosh, it's like 2 months since I have blogged. Apologies for failing to update abt my recent birthday (maybe starting to feel a bit old), christmas and new year eves that went past, my new year resolutions and etc. Was too preoccupied with my new job; it was the first time that I feel that I have truly and really worked: having to stay everyday till 6.30 to 7pm; being busy from morning to evening; having no time to take a break to eat biscuits.
After 1 month of being in my new job, felt truly stressed by the high expectations held by my boss and superiors. The operational aspect of the job has made me realised that I'm such a careless and lazy person. Those kind of minute errors committed can show up in a glaring manner to all, which can be really scary. Started to find out that a certain person is really shitty at work for being trying to dump shitty work upon me or even flaring up under pressure. And the worst thing is that you still have to smile through your teeth at him. Fortunately he don't own the highest power at work. To overcome the stress, have resorted to spending my past 2 precious weekends in understanding and memorising the whole operational procedure, if I want to live through my probation period peacefully.
On a happier note, dear treated me to dinner at sushi tei yesterday night, which cheered me up after having to go back to office on a sat morning out of my own accord plus studying. And another thing is my sis and zim will be holding their wedding gathering at the beginning of next year, looking forward to attending these two close friends' dinner. Hee really feel happy for them =)
Labels: friends, Thoughts
David's Wedding
Yesterday was David's big day and the usual gang of Fornax turned up with 5/6 strength (poor mich has a throat infection) at Grand Copthrone Waterfront. We have always expected him to be the first one to get married and it was really great to see him finally wed his gf of 9(or even longer?) years. Can see that he's really happy as we saw him jumping here and there hee. To David, congrats once again!
The banquet was really huge with 53 tables and it's like one table is situated so closely to each other that you can simply turn around and talk to another person. It was great to see our gang catching up with each other (even though we just met up one month ago? hee) and also saw Nekki mingling happily with his Maris Stella friends cos the groom is also his secondary school classmate. Was also surprised to find that it's a very small world as one of Nekki's friends is also my NUS friend. Our mutual friend, Justin, was even his primary school friend somemore! Also met another VPC friend Audrey, who is his NUS classmate. So, overall the wedding dinner was one of the very enjoyable ones that I have been to.
Hmm..so who will be the next one in Fornax to wed? *grin*
Labels: Fornax
Start of a new beginning
After months of deliberating..have finally made up my mind to do it, even though deep down I'm really fearful of the unknown future. However, I knew that I will regret it if I don't grab the opportunity now. Who knows maybe the job market may be poor next year? By the time I want to change, it will be really tough. Even though I knew that my bosses have treated and valued me well and highly respectively, I still make up my mind to pursue my personal interest.
At the same time, I feel a mix of sadness and happiness. Sadness at having to leave a nice environment of colleagues and bosses, yet happiness at going to a place where I can finally do something that I have always been interested in. My sup has even offered to make a last ditch attempt to change my jobscope in order to retain me. Sadly, I have to turn down her offer as I long knew that the data that I wanted to see will never be able to materalize here for as long as I stayed.
I can only cross my fingers now hoping that my decision will be correct. *crossed fingers*
Ouch! Sprained ankle..
Have wanted to blog a lot of things like the fantastic movies that I have been catching (i.e. Ratatouille, Hair Spray, Bourne Ultimatium) , but simply have no time to do so..
Oh well...since I have some time to spare now..will blog about my poor ankle. Sprained it since last Friday while playing basketball. Since it was the first time that I sprained it, was quite fearful of the pain and the troubles that come with it. It was the first time that I fully appreciate my ankle: for allowing me to walk fast without any difficulty; for allowing me to play the piano nicely via stepping on the pedal; for allowing me to wear pants or bottoms without any difficulty and so on..
It was also the first time that I really understand how handicapped people feel..the feeling of any part of the body that can no longer function well is simply extremely painful and helpless. All along I have only treated my ankle as a normal part of my body, and didn't really pamper it or treat it well.
I promise I will treat my poor ankle well when it recovers...
Tagged!!
Having been tagged by zim a few days ago, think it will be fun to see how many I tag respond in return! So here goes:
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1. (the person who tagged you is) -Zim
2. (your relationship with him/her is) - Nekki's JC good pal cum one of my bball/boardgames/lunch/travel kakhis
3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) - active and sporty/boardgame lover/deep thinker /strategic analyst /love to read
4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) - think it's giving me advice on the structure of our organization?
5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) - want to come down for bball/xbox?
6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will) - er...think i will pengz!
7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) - can do better in having more patience?
8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) - ha probably will just ignore him
9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) - not willing to give way to each other? ha
10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is) - to reassure him that we are still good frens who are still in the process of understanding each other better.
11. (your overall impression of him/her is) - Nice guy who treats the people around him well, especially to his fiance, and great to have deep conversation with.
12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) - tough question, seems like I have a split personality: either an introverted person who needs some time to open up or a chatty gal who loves to talk!
13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is) - I remain strong regardless of how dire the situation is.
14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is) - sometimes for blurting things out that I didn't really think through about.
15. (the most ideal person you want to be is) - well of course trying to be a good, thoughtful person, but it's difficult to be like buddha!
16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them) - I'm really appreciative of your care and concern, hope that I did also behave in the similar manner towards ya...too little time, too many things that I wanna do!
17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)
Will list those who currently have blogs:
1. Omi-chan
2. Rax
3. Kunning
4. JimBean
5. Sharon
6. Key
7. Zim
8. Kaili
9. Chester & Bliss (hee cheated a bit by listing both of you)
10. Nekki (sorry dear that I listed you as the last, but think it's pretty easy to ask you about how you think about me without going thru the net)
(who is no.6 having a relationship with?) - Zim
(Is no.9 a male or female?) - Ha both!
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) - Oops, not possible since they are both guys!
(What is no.2 studying?) - The last he told me, should be considering MBA?
(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?) - Last Saturday during jap lesson
(What kind of music does no.8 like?) - I think any Disney love songs
(Does no.1 has any siblings?) - Yes. An older brother and an elder sister.
(Will you woo no.3?) - Wah, never! I have always treated him as a good jie mei all along!
(How about no.7?) - *Cough cough*, the answer will be the same as the earlier question (refer to ques 6)
(Is no.4 single?) - Yep..though I wish for him to find a good partner
(What’s the surname of no.5?) - should be lim? paiseh if i'm wrong!
(What’s the hobby of no.4?) - Lim kopi? lol Seriously, I think should be playing Wining Eleven
(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?) - All of them don't know each other.
(Where is no.2 studying at?) - Nope he's not studying now
(Say something casual about no.1) - A very nice, good pal of mine! Always wish that I have more time to chat with you on phone or jio u out, sorry omi!
(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?) - Not very applicable since she's a gal
(Where does no.9 live?) - One stays in Jurong east while the other stays in bukit batok?
(What colour does no.4 like?) - Should be blue if i'm not wrong?
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?) - They don't know each other too
(Does no.7 like no.2?) - they don’t know each other. But maybe can introduce them to each other..
(How did you get to know no.2?) - First got to know him during engin camp, didn't tok much to him, think first impression was a very active and loud guy, but as got to know him well, he's a great and caring laopa!
(Does no.1 have any pets?) - Nope, although I think she will want to have pets
(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) - *cough cough* er...zim, dun kill me for responding like tat! =p
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