~Life of an ordinary gal~

Getting bitter..

It was quite some days ago when I read an email about the story of a mum teaching her daughter on the choices of either being a coffee bean, an egg or something else. Remembered that one has the choice of becoming someone who has emerged stronger, weaker or bitter. Although I would have chosen to be like the coffee bean, I couldn't help but feel a bit bitter.

Bitter over what? Over the person who has thought me that no matter how much efforts that I have put in, efforts will never be valued? Even though good attitude is present, she will says that "it's your only saving grace". To her, what matters is "Impression is everything". I don't know whether to laugh or to cry. Isn't good attitude something to be valued? Things can be picked up or learnt over time, but good attitude is not that simple to cultivate in the first place. Or what she wants is someone who can simply presents and talks but is just an empty shell. To her, once she has given a "death sentence" to a person, good things do not matter anymore.

Perhaps the only thing that I learnt, was to be patient and calm, putting on a poker face everyday whenever I see her. Learning to deal with such a person who hurls accusation at you whenever things go wrong. Perhaps I should say to myself: "Welcome to the reality world". Or I should take comfort with what a friend says to me, "it's not the worst that you have encountered".

I yearn for the time when I'm no longer that bittered. If one day you see me with a glowing face, it means that that time has came.

posted by xiaopei @ 10:10 PM